Four eyes? More like Eighteen….

Making a mountain out of a molehill

As if having diabetes wasn’t enough of a kick in the teeth, I now have to contend with my eyesight being different from one day to the next..It’s not unusual for diabetics to have blurred vision, but I wasn’t prepared for the complete 360 my sight has done.

I’ve been short sighted since I was eleven years old, I’ve never minded. I love my glasses, they’re a part of who I am. When my vision started to deteriorate a couple of months ago I was concerned, but not overly so. I just made my appointment for an eye test, and bought the new distance and reading glasses. I wasn’t diagnosed at this point, you can probably guess where this is going…

After I started on metformin, my BG level started to drop. When I picked up my glasses I couldn’t see through them. At. All. I had no idea why at the time, and thought they must have got the prescription wrong. However, about a week ago I put my old specs on to go out and nearly fell over, they were also too strong. It seems that my BG was having a massive effect on my vision, which is still in flux even now, after it has fallen. My near vision has deteriorated to the point where I cannot see anything within an arms length of my face to read, it’s just fuzz. Whereas before, I could read quite well with no glasses at all.

Last Saturday, I bought some 2.0 ready readers. Today I had to buy 1.5 ready readers for distance (to drive) and 3.0 for anything at arms length or closer. I simply cannot convey how much this scares and depresses me.

Over the last couple of years I’ve had to watch a close family member lose their eyesight to the point of being registered blind. If I can’t get the diabetes under control I stand a good chance of developing retinopathy.

Why “eighteen” ?

I now possess eight pairs of glasses as follows:

3 x ready readers (hopefully temporary)

2 x new prescription glasses

3 x old prescription glasses (1 distance, 1 reading, 1 varifocals)

+ my own eyes. Such as they are, which right now.. isn’t much.

My optician is requesting a referral for a retina scan, my eyes look healthy but he wants to be sure. This all feels so familiar. I spent far more time than I care to think about at Southampton eye unit with a loved one, and now I have to do it for myself.

On the plus side, my BG has dropped to within normal parameters. So that’s something!

Carbs, schmarbs

Woman Thinking

I’ve been in a right funk today. Feeling tired and sorry for myself. However, I did download a diet tracker, although it counts calories not carbs. Carb counters seem to be a bit thin on the ground app-wise, or they’re too US Centric.

The app has decided I need to hit 1600 calories a day, which sounds about right, as I’m a chubby and 2,000 a day won’t get the weight off adequately. I managed it OK, by the skin of ma teeth. I’m on Day 4 of being off the full-fat coke, which probably accounts for some of the tiredness.

I’m using an Accu-Chek Mobile to monitor my glucose levels, but sparingly as the damn lancets and strip cassettes really add up financially. I’m hoping when I see my diabetes doc for the first time tomorrow that they’ll give me a ‘scrip for them. Apparently, some NHS trusts are refusing presciption test strips for type 2 sufferers. I guess because we’re ‘self-inflicted’.

Fucking nice eh? I got to the age of 46 with no major illnesses and go almost a decade between visits to the doctor, I didn’t breed either.. so the amount of cash I’ve saved this stupid government adds up pretty well. Anyway, whatever. If they don’t I’ll just not monitor more than I can afford.

Low points of the day – Feeling miserable, lethargic and a bit sick this morning.

High points – Getting on the treadmill and realising how much vaping has improved my overall health. I can last a lot longer on there and I do not breath heavy at the same point I used to by a country mile.

Also, my after meal glucose test showed a drop of four points.

Go me!

Racking up the chronics

Girl with steam coming out of her ears

I was diagnosed with diabetes four days ago. I’ll be honest, I’m a chubby, so I don’t expect any sympathy.. but two years ago I was ‘metabolically healthy’. I had good to low blood pressure, average cholesteral and average blood sugar. So what went wrong?

Well weight is obviously a factor, but I wonder how much stress is. I’ve been under an insane amount of stress with close family illness over the last couple of years, with my mum almost completely dependent on me, and many other problems with dad that I don’t want to talk about here. All while working my nuts off for the business.

What are the other chronics then?

Last year I was told I had osteopenia (a potential precursor to osteoporosis) and arthritis. The weird thing is my doctor never actually told me which type of arthritis. My symptoms suggest osteo, but she told me my blood has markers for “inflammatory disease”, which suggests rheumatoid.

In a nutshell, I seem to be falling apart at the seams. I’m probably clincally depressed as well.

In a word.

Fucksticks.

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